woensdag 1 december 2010

Month of Miracles - December 1, 2010

Tonight, I joined a Woman's Wisdom gathering. This group of women has been meeting every month for 10 years, and discusses a different (spiritual) topic each time. The theme of tonight was: Miracles. Now, there is a lot to say about miracles, and we did. I also could write a lot about miracles, and I will. Hence this blog.

As far as I’m concerned, miracles happen every day and any time. However, for most people it seems that during the December month in particular it is more “miracle time”  than usual. (Why that is, is a whole different story, and maybe I will write about that too.) Regardless, I do think that now is a good time to write about miracles. Starting with one of the miracles that happened tonight.

The Wisdom that is being shared amongst the Women tonight is profound. I make mental notes, so I will be able to reproduce it later (and write about it in this blog). After sharing a round of  answering the question “What is a miracle?” (yes, I will write about that later), the woman who is guiding our group talks about forgiveness. She tells us about a woman in Rwanda that sees her whole family being killed before her eyes. The most horrible thing ever, you would think. And yet, she forgives the murderers. We talk about the fact that carrying around resentment, grievance, anger or any negative emotions withhold us from living a truly blissful and miraculous live. Suddenly, I realize that I still feel anger against the woman who caused a car accident in which she rear-ended my car, resulting in a lot of pain and suffering on my end (and maybe also on hers, I don’t even know). I realize that I need to forgive her. If the woman in Rwanda can do it, so do I. I decide to write a letter. I am not going to mail the letter. I will do it right here (I like instant results). So (and I take a deep breath), here it goes:

“Dear Mrs. Brennan,

I am writing to you regarding the accident that was caused by you on May 24, last.

I don’t know if you were hurt that day, but if you were I hope you are okay now. I was injured badly. I have suffered a lot, and am still dealing with a lingering injury. I have cursed you many times. I have called you many names. I have wished that you were suffering worse than I was.  I have considered suing you for damages. I have thought of many ways to make your live miserable.

I realize that no matter what I do, it will not change what happened. The only thing that I can change is the way I think and feel about it. The accident was just that: an accident. You didn’t cause it on purpose. Therefore, I would like to forgive you for causing the accident. I know that you did not have any intention to hurt me. I am sorry that this unfortunate event happened, also for you. I hope that we will both continue our lives safely and in peace.

Sincerely,
Marije Paternotte”

There it is. My own miracle. And that isn’t even the only one of tonight. Stay tuned for more.

Happy miracles to you!

Marije




Geen opmerkingen:

Een reactie posten