Well, this morning I didn't feel the urge to meditate at all. With the jet leg still lingering, I had slept till late and I wanted to get started with my day. As if meditating is not a start to the day... It didn't get any better when I found that the supposedly 21-days-meditation-challenge Part 2, was not a Part 2 at all. It is just a repetition of the previous challenge, with the exact same meditations and accompanying e-mails. A cosmic joke? Maybe. A challenge? Definitely. I guess the Universe is telling me that I don't need a challenge in order to establish a meditation routine. Or at least I don't need Davidji's daily meditations. After feeling disappointed and frustrated, I realized that I should be able to do this on my own. Right? Just in case, I downloaded the Chopra Center's pod cast and used the Abundance Meditation as my guidance.
I can use some abundance in my life, I am thinking. Not that I am not abundant in many ways, but finances seem to be my challenge at the moment. Especially now that I have my own business and do not receive an identical pay check in the mail every month. So this Abundance Meditation seems to get me two checks in the block: abundance and meditation. Sounds good.
I sit on my yoga block and am instructed to think about 3 things that I am grateful for. Ha, I can come up with more than 3! My thoughts have a good reason to wander off. "There, you see, I am still not good at meditating!" I take a deep breath in and let the air flow out through my nose. I inhale abundance and exhale constriction. I inhale love and exhale fear. I inhale uncertainty and exhale certain pain. To my surprise, this works. Without knowing how to actually breathe in abundance, I can feel myself expanding. And not because I am filling myself with oxygen. At the same time, I wonder if this is really working. If it were, why do I still think I need to do these kind of exercises? Is it necessary to focus on abundance? Aren't we all abundant to begin with? And haven't we just forgotten and are subsequently acting accordingly? Maybe I should stop thinking.
I take another deep breath in and exhale completely. I can do this. I don't need a challenge. I will meditate every day, for the next 20 days. Just by myself. And if I need more food for thought (you never know..) I might reach for some guidance. That guidance might as well come from within. We'll see!
Stay tuned,
Marije
maandag 11 oktober 2010
zondag 10 oktober 2010
Part 2: Day 0, October 10, 2010
After having completed the 21-days-meditation-challenge, I thought I had established a new routine of meditating every morning, or at least some time every day. But then my routine got disturbed: I traveled from the East Coast via Tokyo and Singapore, to teach a yoga retreat on Bali, Indonesia. A journey of more than 30 hours, 12 hours time difference, strange beds to wake up in and on a schedule most of the time. How is that for a challenge?
I found it hard to keep my routine, feeling like I didn't have time to meditate. Even though I am the one who always tells people you don't "have" time, but "make" time... When I did find time to meditate, I used Day 22's Intention Meditation to guide me. The "bonus" meditation Davidji had sent me. I especially loved the part where the meditation focused on a pulsating white light in my heart. With that, I felt such a strong connection with the Universe that it made up for not meditating every day. And eventually, something even more interesting happened.
One day, after finishing the yoga retreat and being on a little island of the coast of Bali, I suddenly felt very strongly the need to meditate. I realized that the reason why I was feeling "weird" that day, was because my energy was scattered. I needed to ground and focus. So I used a rock on the beach as a substitute for my yoga block, sat up straight and closed my eyes. After only 5 minutes of concentrating on my breathing and visualizing a pulsating white light in my heart, I felt like a different person. Much better, that is. I was amazed. I mean, I already knew that meditating is a good thing to do, for many reasons, but I had never felt this urge before, let alone the immediate effect of the meditation afterwards. I guess the 21 days of meditation had some belated and unexpected rewards.
When I saw that there would be a 21-days-meditation-challenge Part 2, I didn't hesitate to sign up. Being back home, and still with a jet lag, I thought I could use some assistance to get back into my meditation routine. Besides, who knows what other surprises will be bestowed?
Stay tuned,
Marije
I found it hard to keep my routine, feeling like I didn't have time to meditate. Even though I am the one who always tells people you don't "have" time, but "make" time... When I did find time to meditate, I used Day 22's Intention Meditation to guide me. The "bonus" meditation Davidji had sent me. I especially loved the part where the meditation focused on a pulsating white light in my heart. With that, I felt such a strong connection with the Universe that it made up for not meditating every day. And eventually, something even more interesting happened.
One day, after finishing the yoga retreat and being on a little island of the coast of Bali, I suddenly felt very strongly the need to meditate. I realized that the reason why I was feeling "weird" that day, was because my energy was scattered. I needed to ground and focus. So I used a rock on the beach as a substitute for my yoga block, sat up straight and closed my eyes. After only 5 minutes of concentrating on my breathing and visualizing a pulsating white light in my heart, I felt like a different person. Much better, that is. I was amazed. I mean, I already knew that meditating is a good thing to do, for many reasons, but I had never felt this urge before, let alone the immediate effect of the meditation afterwards. I guess the 21 days of meditation had some belated and unexpected rewards.
When I saw that there would be a 21-days-meditation-challenge Part 2, I didn't hesitate to sign up. Being back home, and still with a jet lag, I thought I could use some assistance to get back into my meditation routine. Besides, who knows what other surprises will be bestowed?
Stay tuned,
Marije
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